| HISTORY
OF NARCOTICS ANONYMOUS
(Transcribed from workshop tape)
Hi, I’m Scott
and I’m an addict. Hello family, it’s good to be here
today. Many of us have the desire to know more about our own roots.
That is what has basically guided me to ask a lot of questions,
find people out, and talk to them over a period of time to pick-up
bits and pieces of the history of Narcotics Anonymous. If there
is one thing for sure I’ve been able to figure out is if
NA didn’t exist, someone would have to invent it. That is
about what did happen in several different places. Some of these
places had ties with each other and others were totally independent
of each other, but all were about recovery from the disease of
addiction.
You know this whole idea
of the President’s war on drugs is not a new idea. Back
in the Thirties, during prohibition, there was a heavy increase
in drug usage. That was especially true for opium, morphine, and
heroin. The public was kind of freaked-out over “drug crazed
maniacs” and there were newspaper articles and stuff like
that about those kind of things in those days. In fact, I can
remember seeing reprints of a poster from the American Brewers’
Association that dated back from 1933 and it talked about “reefer
madness.” All of that came out in the Thirties. In 1933,
the Federal Government responded to this public appeal to do something
about it, by opening up a U.S. Public Health Service Hospital
in Lexington, Kentucky and it was part of the Lexington Kentucky
Federal Prison then. Anybody could go to it, it required a court
or voluntary committal. If a person thought they needed help from
addiction, they could find out about this place, go there, and
commit themselves. Truth is though that medical science didn’t
have a clue as to what to do with these people when they got there
and you can imagine some of the experimentation that went on.
Related closer to our history
is in 1947, a fellow (named Houston), who recovered in another
well-known Fellowship, believed that their 12-Steps could work
for addicts. He had talked to a person who had just been out of
that Public Health Service Hospital and he thought he saw a way
that he could help them. Then Houston talked to a Dr. Victor Vogel
who was the main principle doctor behind the Lexington Hospital.
He convinced him that these 12 Steps could work for addicts and
Houston offered to help start a group at the hospital.
On February 16, 1947, the
first meeting of that group was held and they continued their
weekly meetings for over twenty years, well into the late Sixties.
They called themselves the Narco Group and at other times also
adopted the other name Addicts Anonymous. We know about that because
some of the people that were involved in that group are around
today.
An interesting thing came
out of the early 1947 group at Lexington, Kentucky, a fellow named
Dan Carlson, a chronic relapser. In 1947, he came to Lexington
for his 7th trip. He started attending the Narco groups, and for
the first time in all his visits he began to feel like maybe there
was a ray of hope, that maybe there was a chance that he could
stop using. He spent his six-month stay there and then he went
back to New York City. There he hooked-up with someone else who
quietly on the sides apparently has been a moving force in the
development of what later became our Narcotics Anonymous today.
Her name was Major Dorothy Barry and she was a Major in the Salvation
Army. She was committed to helping poor people, street people,
and particularly addicts.
In 1948, Daniel Carlson,
another person, and this Major Barry started a 12-Step NA group.
They called it Narcotics Anonymous and they started in the New
York Federal Prison System. We don’t know what happened
to it; it seemed to disappear shortly after
Apparently though the idea
was working at Lexington because in 1948 in Fort Worth, Texas
the Federal Narcotics Farm adopted the Lexington model. The Lexington
model at that point had become the 12-Steps with the word drugs
changed in the First Step.
Dan Carlson relapsed again
and he came back to Lexington in 1949, but this time apparently
he was able to surrender and find what he needed to find and he
stayed clean every since. When he left Lexington later in 1949,
he went back to New York and got the Salvation Army to give him
a meeting space for a Narcotics Anonymous meeting. He also got
a YMCA to give another meeting space for a Narcotics Anonymous
meeting.
We know about these things
because some of the folks that were there wrote about it. Dan
Carlson wrote a book called “The Addict.” There was
another book by a fellow named Winzell Brown called “Monkey
on my Back” and it has a chapter in it called Narcotics
Anonymous, and in that chapter he talks about the meeting at the
Salvation Army soup kitchen. Another fellow named Father Dan Eagan,
who is woven throughout the history of Narcotics Anonymous over
the years, wrote a book called “Junkie Priest.” In
here there is a book called “Wednesday Night at the Y.”
He talks about the Wednesday night Narcotics Anonymous meeting
at the YMCA.
The thing that it took
me a while personally to figure out though is these people weren’t
founding fellowships, they were founding groups and calling them
Narcotics Anonymous, Narco groups, or Addicts Anonymous. They
were pretty independent of each other and they were people that
were just striving to help each other. They might have had one
or two folks that just thought that this is a good thing and they
sort of helped it happen but it wasn’t any kind of a movement
it was just independent efforts. In 1950 we know another one of
those semi-independent efforts. They called themselves the NOTROL
group and they were a 12-Step group started at the Federal Prison
in Lorton, Virginia which is right outside of D.C. The name Notrol
is Lorton spelled backwards.
The only tie we can see
so far to this is that apparently it was graduates of the Lexington,
Kentucky Public Health Service Hospital. When they left, wherever
they went to or whatever prison they ended-up in, they tended
to start groups. They were based on the 12 Steps.
Unrelated to that, in 1950,
we also know that there were Habit Forming Drug groups taking
place in Los Angeles, California, usually in conjunction with
AA meetings. They were also held in homes. The principal person
behind them was a lady named Betty Thom. She did a lot of writing.
A member of our region used to live up in Vista before he died.
Last year a friend of mine and I were allowed to go through some
of his books and papers, and he had inches of writing from this
HFD group. They had a 12 Step guide. They had a bunch of various
articles that were type-written out on pages like maybe a magazine
article before it got published or something. They were very committed
that the 12 Steps could work for recovery from addiction.
Jimmy Kinnon, the co-founder
of Narcotics Anonymous refers to a group called Addicts Anonymous
that was taking place in East Los Angeles around this same time
around 1950. We don’t know anything about it except for
a couple of people I’ve talked to seem to remember that
maybe a fellow named Si Malos was involved. Si Malos and Jimmy
butted heads for over 15-20 years and the years that followed
but apparently they both had a very single purpose and that was
recovery from the disease of addiction through Steps.
So from 1950 to 1953, we
know that there was various things popping up in different parts
of the country. In New York and Chicago, the Salvation Army. In
Virginia; Lexington, Kentucky; Texas; and California these individual
groups named Addicts Anonymous, Narcotics Anonymous, Narc group,
HFD, they were happening. They were oriented to 12-Step recovery
from the disease of addiction. Most of them were independent of
each other. The only ties we can see are, first off, they weren’t
a fellowship they were individual groups, and they were either
started by people that came through the Salvation Army system
or they were tied to folks that had gone through Lexington Kentucky
Public Health Service Hospital.
We also know something
else. Lexington Kentucky Public Health Service Hospital published
a newsletter. It was called the Key and late on I’ll tell
you about how the Key became a part of our history. In 1954, the
editor of the Key who was the editor then, I’ve talked to
him. He says they had a mailing list of over 90 people, in almost
every state.
In 1953, in our Basic Text,
Jimmy Kinnon refers to NA beginning around July of 1953. At an
anniversary dinner, Jimmy spoke about how for about six weeks
they discussed and argued over forming this fellowship and how
it was going to be and what it was going to be based on and how
it was going to work. We think that this reference to July 1953
is because of those weeks of discussions that they had.
What we have in writing
and what we also know about was that on August 17, 1953, a group
of people met together for the purpose of forming a fellowship.
Now Jimmy was known in the local community in San Fernando Valley
as an alcoholic addict. That’s the way he introduced himself
in the meeting he went to. There were often meetings after the
meetings where they would sit in the coffee shop and talk about
the things they couldn’t talk about in the other meetings.
When the people that got
together to put together this first fellowship met, they started
keeping minutes from day one. We have copies of those minutes
here. They begin on August 17, 1953.
The original people consisted
of Frank Carnahan, Doris, Carnahan, Guilda Kraus, Paul Rosenbluth,
Steve Ryan, and Jimmy Kinnon. They met for the purpose of organizing
an AANA group. The name was San Fernando Valley Alcoholics Anonymous
and Narcotics Anonymous. And over the next few months, this committee
met regularly, there’s dates about once a week, once every
two weeks in here. They drew up a set of bylaws and in a sense
we almost started as a service committee before we had our first
recovery meeting. What does that tell you? We do know for a fact
from the very beginning the Narcotics Anonymous that is our fellowship
today consists of 12 Steps, the 12 Traditions. The First Step
used the word addiction and the word we was used in each and every
step. We were that way from the beginning. They set it up on purpose.
We also know on August
31 there’s an entry in the minutes that our purpose was
taken from the Key. Now what they meant by that was this newsletter
and this is a Xerox of a copy of this Lexington newsletter and
there’s not many that you’ll ever see anymore. This
copy came from the National Archives in Atlanta Georgia. A friend
went there and dug through a bunch of boxes. The purpose statement
that is in this Key was very similar to the wording of the first
meeting announcement for the first NA recovery group and I’ll
read it to you.
“NARCOTICS ANONYMOUS – OUR PURPOSE”
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“This is an informal group of drug addicts, banded together
to help one another to renew their strength in remaining free
of drug addiction. Our precepts are patterned after those of Alcoholics
Anonymous to whom all credit is given precedence is acknowledged.
We claim no originality but since we believe that the causes of
alcoholism and addiction are basically the same, we will to apply
to our lives the truths and principles which have benefited so
many otherwise helpless individuals. We believe that in so doing
we may regain and maintain our health and sanity. Which shall
be the purpose of this group to endeavor to foster a means of
rehabilitation to the addict, and to carry the message of hope
for the future to those who have become enslaved by the use of
habit-forming drugs”
Oh, yea, on September 14,
1953, they got a, I’m not sure if they got a letter or a
phone call but they heard from the General Service Office of Alcoholics
Anonymous. They heard from AA and AA said, “You can use
our Steps, you can use our Traditions, but you cannot use our
name. So they changed the name of the group to Narcotics Anonymous.
October 5, 1953, is the
first documented recovery meeting of this Fellowship of Narcotics
Anonymous. And I read for you the flyer that announced this thing,
which is a new idea, nobody ever tried to do this quite this way
before. It was held at the Dad’s Club, in San Fernando Valley.
Today that building still stands it is at the corner of Cantara
and Clybourn, I’ve been there. It’s a Spanish Church
today. There were 17 people that signed in. I have the sign-in
sheet from that original meeting. Those meetings took place every
week from then on, at least into the next year and the meetings
continued but at a different location in the years that follow.
Ironically though, while
we started as a service committee in a sense, by the end of 1953,
everybody who had been elected in this committee had resigned,
including Jimmy Kinnon. He made fun of it at the 20th Anniversary
dinner when he talked about that. They all had their different
feelings but the meeting continued.
In March of 1954, Bill
Wilson, co-founder of AA wrote a letter to the lady that was instrumental
in the HFD group. I’d like to read to you a little bit from
that letter because it’s kind of interesting on how that
other fellowship was dealing with us. They wanted us to be something
too.
“Dear Betty,
Thanks a million, make
it two million, for your heart-warming letter of March 11th updating
me on your progress with addicts. I think this all perfectly wonderful.
At this stage, I’m sure that it is the quality that counts
rather than the quantity but you have been doing a quality job
and inspired other to do likewise is very evident. What can you
tell me of the progress of the other groups at Lexington and here
in the East going under the names of Addicts Anonymous and Narcotics
Anonymous? At times, I pick-up very second-hand stories to the
effect that we are making progress but not so much as they might
if they really came to grips with the 12 Steps and had proper
hospitalization.
I’m also interested
in knowing how many people you feel you have really straightened
up and how those have divided themselves between narcotics, who
were once alcoholics and narcotic pure and simple. All of your
concern in this work will surely have my warmest appreciation
and I hope that you’ll let everyone have the occasion of
knowing it. Meanwhile, the main transmission duct of the addict
will be from our AA members who have also suffered addiction.
And they should surely be allowed attendance at open AA meetings
just as anyone else is. One more question. Do any of your recoveries
that are straight addiction cases find difficulty in identifying
themselves with other AA members? I guess I told you, I’ve
noticed in many alcoholics the marked aversion to dope addicts
and visa versa. (This is 1954) I wish I could write you the ling
letter yours deserves but my desk is piled high. Meantime, may
God love dearly, all of you.
Devotedly,
Bill Wilson”
Something else happened
in 1954: our first literature of Narcotics Anonymous. If you visit
the World Service Office, you can see a copy of it in a glass
case. It’s called the Yellow Booklet. There was a History
Convention last year in Alabama and as token to those that registered
and came to the convention they reprinted the Yellow Booklet and
thy put a red cover on it so nobody would try to pass it off.
There are some interesting things in this original 1954 literature.
First off it has 20 questions. “Do you lose time from work
due to using? Is using making your home life unhappy? Do you fix
because you are shy with other people?” They really cut
to the bone here. Some of the other chapter titles are “What
can I do about it?” and “What is the Narcotics Anonymous
Program?” The 12 Steps are in here and it talks about being
powerless over addiction and the word “we” is in every
one of the other 12 Steps. The “Just for Today Prayer”
is here, from 1954. And what is particularly interesting and helps
us know that HFD and the original Narcotics Anonymous were two
separate and distinct organizations, is that when I when through
that member’s papers up in Vista, we found a copy of the
HFD’s Just for Today Prayer that went on for about 3 pages
and 20 stanzas. The Just for Today Prayer that’s in this
1954 literature is the same one that’s on your group reading
cards today.
There is also something
that I take particular interest in, being from Dan Diego. On the
inside back cover of this original yellow book, there is two addresses.
One of them is a Post Office box in Studio City, California, that
is Jimmy Kinnon’s Post Office box. Let me read the other
one to you.
“Narcotics
Anonymous
P.O.Box13023, South Eastern Station
San Diego, California”
That’s right. Narcotics
Anonymous has existed in San Diego at least four times that we
know of. The fellowship that we see here today sitting in this
room is a product of an effort that took place in the late 60’s
and the early 1970’s. But in 1954, there is at least one
member that came down here and opened up a Post Office Box and
called it Narcotics Anonymous. Later on, for those who were at
our San Diego Convention three years ago, there is a fellow who
came and spoke named Vito. He shared about how in 1962 he came
to San Diego to spend some time with his sponsor on a commune
that was located out in Alpine. I think that commune just recently
moved to San Antonio, Texas. It was in the news. But NAA has been
here and it sort of come about and then sort of disappeared into
the other fellowship for a while and come about again. If we didn’t
exist, someone would have to invent us. The best anyone can tell
San Diego is at least the second oldest community of the current
fellowship of Narcotics Anonymous.
We also know that Jimmy
was in contact with the folks back in Lexington, Kentucky, not
only did he apparently get copies of the Key but in 1953, some
of the old-timers that are still around remember that there was
a collection taken up. Jimmy Kinnon went back to Lexington, Kentucky
to participate in some kind of seminar. We don’t really
know any more that that except that apparently it did happen.
From 1954 to 1959 there
was basically one regular meeting and rabbit meetings. The one
regular meeting took place at a Doctor Shrier’s detox center.
They nicknamed it “Shrier’s Dryer” where people
could go and dry out. Now Jimmy actually had a real problem with
this particular meeting because you see they would go to the meeting
and they would raise hands. All the alcoholics would raise their
hands and then all the addicts would raise their hands. If there
were more alcoholics it was an AA meeting and if there were more
addicts it was an NA meeting. Jimmy was really big on the Traditions
and he had a real problem with the way that meeting was different
each week depending on who was there. But you have to also consider
that the community of people that were attending was very small
and had to hang very close together. A lot of the meeting that
also took place were in people’s breakfast rooms and kitchens
and so forth and they pretty much jus kept each other going one
at a time.
The other fellowships that
I was telling about like in New York and so forth, we also know
that they started waning sometime after 1956. Danny Carlson died
in 1956. There wasn’t anyone in New York to pick up the
ball and continue the meeting he had started. So the best we can
tell somewhere after 1956, the New York Narcotics Anonymous just
sort of faded away.
In 1959 as the 50’s
ended, NA was dwindling because of the fact that you couldn’t
know if you were going to an AA meeting or a NA meeting like Shrier’s
Dryer on any given night because some of the people had gone out.
It was harder to find new people because various personality were
starting to get involved there was some conflicts. NA dwindled
and in 1959 for about four months there were no Narcotics Anonymous
meetings of any kind. It broke Jimmy’s heart and in late
1959 we’re not sure whether December, ’59 or March,
1960, Jimmy K. Determined that this couldn’t be allowed
to happen. Jimmy, Sylvia Wexler, and Penny Kennedy restarted Narcotics
Anonymous and the vow they made was that they would follow the
Traditions more closely. They felt that the reason it had faded
away, the reason there had been personality conflicts was because
there had been big shots and big mamas, I guess Betty Thom was
the big mama and Si Malos might have been the big shot. The only
way that they could survive as a fellowship is if they scrupulously
followed the 12 Traditions, particularly the anonymity part.
Interesting to mention,
a well-known member of our fellowship, Bob B. First found NA back
in this time frame of 1959. His wife who happens to be here today
had attended an Alanon meeting and met Jimmy Kinnon’s first
wife whose name was Alice. Alma brought Bob B. to his first meetings.
Bob didn’t stay clean then though.
1959 to 1962, the meeting
moved from Shrier’s. Jimmy wanted to get away from the old
influence and they moved to what was then a Unity church on Moorepark
Street, in Van Nuys. That is the location of what later became
the only NA meeting in the world and favorite story of a lot of
us. There were also rabbit meetings that took place at people’s
houses but in 1960 there was on basic meeting of Narcotics Anonymous.
Also in 1960, Jimmy Kinnon
apparently maybe listed Narcotics Anonymous in the local phone
book and we call that the first answering service that was ever
established for Narcotics Anonymous.
1962, our first Little White
Book appeared. This is the Little White Booklet that has evolved
into the Little White Book today.
In 1963 the first H &
I meeting was held. It was held at Tahachapi State Penitentiary.
Bob B. happened to be one of the people they were bringing the
meeting to, he was in Tahachapi at the time. He got the message
and it sunk in this time, he got out in ’63 and he started
attending meetings from mid-1963 on and that’s where he
dates his clean time. I mention him because I know many of you
know him and love him.
Also in 1963 we have some
indication either ’62 or ’63 we have indication that
there was a restart of Narcotics Anonymous in San Diego and we
know of people that visited the meetings herein that time. They
were either at the commune or apparently they like in a coffee
shop after another fellowships meetings. 1963 is also when Jimmy
Kinnon wrote what became the pamphlet, “Another Look.”
This is a copy of the original typewritten manuscript. And on
the last page there are the letters “JPK/63.”
From the beginning we have
the Little Yellow Book that had some literature. But particularly
from the days of 1967 Sylvia Wexler, Penny Kennedy and Jimmy,
literature was important to Narcotics Anonymous, if we didn’t
have numbers of people at least we could pass it on in writing
and one person could give it to another. And much of our writing
took place during that time frame. Our early writing it’s
the White Book.
The Salvation Army also
is back in the picture in 1962. They started something in Cleveland
that they called Narcotics Anonymous. I always get a kick out
of this. This original Cleveland, Ohio Narcotics Anonymous from
1963 had 13 Steps. I’d like to read them to you.
“Narcotics Anonymous
– the 13 Steps”
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1. Admit the use of narcotics made my life seem more tolerable
but the drug had become an undesirable power over my life.
2. Came to realize that to face life without drugs I must develop
an inner strength.
3. Made a decision to face the suffering of withdrawal.
4. Learn to accept my fears without drugs.
5. Find someone who had progressed thus far and who is able to
assist me. (Sound a little familiar?)
6. Admit to the nature and depth of my addiction. (It’s
amazing how it parallels but it’s not the same.)
7. Realized the seriousness of my shortcomings as I know them
and accept the responsibility of facing them.
8. Admit before a group of NA members these same shortcomings
and explain why I am trying to overcome them.
9. List for my own understanding all the persons I have hurt.
10. Take a daily inventory of my actions and admit to myself those
that are contrary to good conscience.
11. Realize that to maintain freedom from drugs, I must share
with others the experience in which I have benefited.
12. Determine a purpose in life and try with all the spiritual
and physical power within me to move toward its fulfillment.
13. God help me.
Next time you’re at
a convention and someone yells, “13!” you can always
say, “God help me.”
Apparently some months
after that original new letter with those original thirteen steps
was published, the Cleveland group was brought back into the party
line of Salvation Army’s view of it, and they published
their own little pamphlet and it’s got a set of twelve steps
that look like the ones from New York. They used the word drugs
in stead of addiction and they don’t have the word We in
each of the Twelve Steps.
In 1964 we believe the
Board of Trustees was formed. The dates are kind of fuzzy because
they didn’t write a lot of things down in those days. Jimmy
Kinnon knew he couldn’t do it all by himself. One of his
original people had gone out. The other one was left with him.
The main purpose of the Board of Trustees founding was to see
that NA doesn’t die again. That was the main purpose for
establishing the Board of Trustees. You’ve got to remember
that in the 1960’s, Jimmy said that they would stick to
the Traditions. The roll of our Trustees being the guardian of
the Traditions seems to come from this early era. The early experience
that if we didn’t stick to the Traditions we’d disappear.
And what better way to embody that than to have a group of people
rather than an individual.
We also know in 1965 Northern
California Narcotics Anonymous begins. One of the real stalwarts
in San Fernando in those days was a lady named Sylvia Magdelano
and she had two brothers, Frank and I forget the other’s
name (Hank). They moved to Berkley. They and someone else named
Vargas started a place called the Add Center. The meeting in Berkley,
Oakland, San Francisco and San Jose all draw their lineage from
the movement of these folks in 1965 up to Berkley.
1966: I want to read you
some things that will probably interest you. That was the second
printing of out Little White Book and this time it had the stories
in it. The widow of our co-founder and our co-founder himself
at various times indicated who wrote what and when. I’d
like to tell you a little about that.
“Who Is An Addict?”
was written by Jimmy Kinnon in 1960
“What I The
NA Program?” was written by Jimmy Kinnon and Sylvia Wexler
in 1960.
“Why are we
Here?” was written by Sylvia Wexler in 1960
“How It Works.”
– the paragraphs before and after the Step were written
by Jimmy K. Again the Steps having the word addiction and the
word We in each and every Step and the Traditions using the word
addict all dated from 1953.
“What Can I
Do?” was written by Jimmy Kinnon in 1960.
“Recovery and
Relapse” was Jimmy Kinnon’s story and he wrote that
in 1960.
“We Do Recover”
which was read by Steve at the beginning of this workshop, was
written by Jimmy Kinnon in 1961.
Now some of the other people
I’m going to list are still living, so I’m only going
to give a first name. The ones that are deceased I’ll give
the first and last name.
“1/3 of My Life”
was written in 1962 by Bill P., who is still living.
“I Can’t
Do Anymore Time” was written by Penny Kennedy in 1962.
“The Vicious
Circle” was written in 1962 by a gentleman named Gene who
is still living.
“Something
Meaningful” was written by Bob B. I’ve called around
and talked to a lot of old-timers and nobody knew who wrote it
until last Thursday night when I happened to talk to the person
that wrote it. Bob happens to be the only person whose story is
in two different places under two different names written at two
different times in his life. His story is also in the Basic Text,
“I Found The Only NA Meeting In The World.” I asked
him how is it that he rewrote his story. He replied, “Different
times, different eras, and different me.” It’s a good
answer! Personally, I believe that it’s very fitting that
we honor this particular person this way.
There’s another story
that was in the ’62 book that you don’t see today.
It’s called “One Woman’s Story” and was
written by Betty Gruber. They took the story out in 1976 because
she went back out.
Back in 1966 our fledgling
fellowship had 10 meetings. We also know that in 1967 in the Louisiana
State Prison in Angola, Louisiana the Federal Prison System, the
Public Health Service was getting involved again and they started
another Narcotics Anonymous. They printed a newsletter which I’ve
seen copies of in various places it’s more recent I guess
and more copies were sent out. They have articles in this newsletter
about addict convicts going out doing public information speeches
and all kinds of stuff. They pretty much seem to have found this
NA that they started in Louisiana as a way to document the success
of their ability to recover people from addiction.
In 1967 and ’68,
the Parent General Service Organization was formed. It operated
much like a Regional Service Committee. The Board of Trustees
met with GSRs each moth. It was the representative Service Committee.
In 1968 Jimmy Kinnon designed
the NA Symbol, the diamond and the circle that you see. He was
in the hospital, he suffered from emphysema and cancer for many,
many years, often he was in and out of the hospital for periods
of time. He felt we needed a logo or symbol.
In 1969 our then Board
of Trustees put together a two-page document called the Service
Structure Ideal. Later that same year they put forth the Parent
General Service Organization bylaws. They are mostly interesting
from a historical perspective that we started writing down the
shape of our service structure.
In 1970 we know that we
had twenty meetings and if you went to a Narcotics Anonymous in
1970 the group readings would of looked like this. They have “The
Twelve Steps”, “The Twelve Traditions” and the
third paragraph of the chapter of “We Do Recover”
on it. This sheet is what was uses in the beginning of meetings.
In 1971 the first World
Convention was held at the La Miranda Country Club. Sylvia Madgelano
from Northern California was the speaker. As much as there were
rifts back and forth between the Southern California Fellowship
and the Northern California Fellowship there were also efforts
to mend the wounds. This was one of those efforts. There wasn’t
a real flyer for this first World Convention, what happened is
the Board of Trustees sent out a letter saying, “Dear Friends,
this letter is your invitation to our Narcotics Anonymous conference
to be held on the weekend of November 5th and 7th at the La Mirada
Country Club. They wanted to try and do something to foster unity.
I have a copy of a 1971
Southern California meeting list, it’s got 26 meetings on
it, it happens to mention for San Diego information write O. L.
Murdock, whoever that is. There are meetings all over from San
Diego to Ventura listed on this meeting list.
In 1971 the WSO got its
first location. It’s a big yellow building sitting near
the corner of I-10 and Crenshaw up in L.A., 2335 Crenshaw Blvd.
was the address. Bob B. was the manager of that place, he apparently
lived in the other part of the apartment building and there was
some office spaces in the front of it. That’s the first
address that the WSO ever had.
In 1972 there were 70 Narcotics
Anonymous meetings worldwide. That included some on military bases
in Germany.
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In 1972 Alcoholics Anonymous
told Jimmy not to use an adaptation of their prayer, “I
Am Responsible”. Jimmy had taken that prayer and changed
the AA to NA and AA didn’t like that. You can use the Steps
and you can use the Traditions but you can’t use our name
and you can’t use our literature. So Jimmy wrote “The
Gratitude Prayer”. I’ve had people tell me that it
didn’t sound like a prayer, but you know maybe it’s
just our western culture or maybe it’s recovering Catholics
but I’ve discovered prayers don’t have to be a petitioning.
They can be a simple statement. “I show my gratitude when
I care and when I share with others the NA way.”
In 1972 the second World
Convention was held at the Elks Club in Studio City, N. Hollywood.
In 1973 the first Area Service
Committee was formed. Something interesting Jimmy was there and
he talked about the idea of a representative service structure
of GSRs. This was a controversial thing because the Parent General
Service Organization had their monthly meeting the general service
meeting and there were like 33 groups in L.A. at the time and
maybe 12 of them would show up and they would talk about the color
of balloons they would have at the dance. I’ve got a tape
of this thing and this is the kind of stuff that they mentioned.
The folks up in San Fernando wanted to form together to better
meet their local needs and just send one representative down to
the GSO meeting and he could just vote on the things that came
up that might apply to San Fernando Valley and not worry about
the color of the balloons. Jimmy also talked in this meeting about
NA Principles of Service. They were from that original 2-page
Service Structure Idea of 4 years previous. He reads them off
on the tape.
“The Six Principles
of Service”
1. Each NA Group has but
one primary purpose: To carry this message to the addict who still
suffers.
2. Every NA Group ought
to be fully self-supporting.
3. NA should remain forever
nonprofessional.
4. Although NA as such ought
never be organized, but we may create service boards or committees
directly responsible to those they serve.
5. Our leaders are but trusted
servants, they do not govern.
6. We try to carry this
message to addicts and to practice these principles in all our
affairs.
Yes it is familiar, they’re
taken from Traditions 5, 7, 8, 9, 2, and the 12th Step. But again
Jimmy was very much about sticking to the Traditions.
In 1973 the 3rd World Convention
was held in San Jose, the first time it left Southern California.
Also in 1973 there was a 20th Anniversary Banquet. There’s
a flyer for it on the table back there, that’s an original
flyer, they didn’t have Xerox machines back then they used
mimeograph. That’s why it’ got this blue ink on it.
Jimmy spoke at that particular banquet dinner, he talked a little
bit about some of the early days. He was very careful in what
he said but you can a feel for a little bit of what he’s
talking about. He sort of gives you fundamental understanding
of partly why the Traditions meant so much to him because apparently
there had been a lot of personality conflicts during the 50’s.
In 1974 the WSO moved to
Highland Avenue, Hollywood. Again they would move again a few
times over the next couple of years. Also in 1974 separate from
the WSO, the Southern California Regional Office was established
in L.A.
OK, I got to end up here
pretty quick, I’d just like to mention that, through the
70’s was when we began developing our service structure.
That also at the end of the 70’s when we began working on
our Basic Text. There are samples back on the table of the original
NA Tree and the 2nd edition Tree and there is also examples from
the flyer from the World Literature Conferences at the end of
the 70’s. Copies of the Gray Form which was the review form
of the Basic Test. Just to give you a little bit of taste of what
it was like taking to some of these people, we have a movie video
of the co-founder of Narcotics Anonymous sitting in his home talking
to the camera. If someone can dim the lights, it would probably
make it a lot easier to see. I think it will kind of help you
get a taste of what I was talking about earlier.
(video of Jimmy Kinnon plays)
My name is Phil, I’m
an addict. First of all, I’d like to thank Scott for a phenomenal
job. I thought, it’s weird, I’ve come and spoke before
you people a number of times and I’ve really never been
that anxious about it. I’ve thought a lot over the last
few weeks about Jimmy and what I was going to say here today.
It’s easier to come up here and talk about yourself, I mean
that’s what my favorite topic is. It’s not that easy
to talk about a man who saved my life. I was semi-okay till I
saw the tape; I hadn’t seen this tape.
At that point, Jimmy was
dying. At that point, Jimmy had been locked out of our World Service
Office and thrown basically out of the service structure of Narcotics
Anonymous. At that point, Jimmy was pretty much a broken man.
Jimmy was my friend. Jimmy was probably the only father I’ve
known in my whole life. When I was 3 days clean my sponsor took
me from the recovery house and took me over to the World Service
Office, which was a little room they showed at the beginning of
that tape. There was that wiry guy that’s bigger than life.
I don’t know how to explain that, he wasn’t much taller
than me and he couldn’t have weighed much more than a 120
pounds but if you got in his face you were in big trouble. That’s
all I can tell you. It was incredible because I came in there
and I came in like most of us came in, after 2 ½ years
of drug addiction non-stop. I came in like most of us, just brimming
over with self-worth and he was in the midst of doing something
and I don’t remember exactly what, there were papers flying
and UPS books out and pamphlets folded and he dropped it all and
the says, “Hi, what’s your name?” I was the
most important person in that room at that minute. I kind of flexed
up about it, I didn’t you know, I first of all didn’t
know who the crazy man was, and second of all why was I so important
he took me into his kitchen, that little kitchen table they showed
and him and his wife Betty asked me who I was and how I had gotten
clean and all that. From that time on, all I can tell you is that
I got to know two of the most wonderful people in my life.
Jimmy’s belief was
that no addict seeking recovery should die without the chance
to recover. He lived that. He didn’t just talk it and he
didn’t just write literature about it, he lived it. You
heard of what he did and you’ve heard of what he’s
written, maybe it wasn’t mentioned but he also carved the
NA logo on a piece of leather when he was in the hospital with
tuberculosis. In that tape the tuberculosis had damaged so much
of his lings that he got lung cancer. Because there was such minimal
amount of lung left they couldn’t go in and kill the lung
cancer with lasers so he was dying and that’s when he rekindled
the desire to try to give us a little bit of history about Narcotics
Anonymous.
He’s also been so
busy in the solution of watching Narcotics Anonymous grow. His
goal was to see Narcotics Anonymous ten thousand members strong.
When I went into service after he had died, there were twenty
thousand meetings of Narcotics Anonymous in the world. I don’
think he ever knew that there were that many because he was always
striving to get more. For many years, I never knew that Jimmy
wrote all the literature, basically all the literature. You know
why? Because he never mentioned it. He was too busy telling me
“How you doing Phil? We were too busy trying to get an old
printing press to print our IPs and things like that.
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I spent probable three
days a week about a half a day at the World Service Office for
the first year and a half of my recovery, I was on the Board of
Directors of the WSO but it wasn’t so much like a service
commitment as it was like being part of the family. When you’re
in Jimmy’s house and with his wife and the people that were
volunteers you worked your ass off. We folded all the information
pamphlets by hand. We did all that stuff. No one showed up. There
were about four or five of us that went on a regular basis and
you didn’t get paid but yet you go paid in your heart. Jimmy
used to come by the recovery house that I was in, I can’t
mention the name of it, but it was one of the oldest in the California
area, maybe the nation. He had privileged card number one at this
recovery house. He used to come by and get me and take me over
to his house and sometimes what we’d do that day was work
on a Mustang that had two hundred thousand miles on it and should
of been in a junkyard about a hundred ago. The neat part was that
I don’t have all these notes and things but the neat part
was Jimmy. Jimmy was like I said, bigger that life, and I think
that’s why you see it and you feel it in this program. This
program is a part of him. He used to sit there and I’d be
under there trying to adjust something that were all the way down
or something and had no adjustments left and he’d tell me
something like, “Phil you know you can never go back.”
That would go right over my head but I knew it was heavy you know.
He’d tell you stuff that you just knew if you take this
and keep it, someday it would be useful. Sometimes he would tell
me things that applied right then and there.
I don’t know man,
Jimmy gave me a great honor when I had about 6 months clean he
let me start doing the UPS mailing. Believe me that was a great
honor. Jimmy didn’t delegate thing to people easily, he
wanted it done right which ended up being his demise. He le me
do the mailing and then he started letting me answer letters from
people around the world. One of the first letters I answered was
from a gentleman from Calgary that was trying to start a meeting,
he’d heard of Narcotics Anonymous and he sent a letter down
asking for information. Jimmy handed it to me and says, “Go
for it!” I said, “You sure? I hadn’t been clean
that long. I think I had about 8 months then. He says, “Yea!”
I sat down and wrote the guy a letter back and he had said that
he was trying to get Narcotics Anonymous started up there and
he didn’t know anything about it. He wanted to know about
it. So I mailed him a starter kit and I wrote a letter in there
and I told him that, how we got 30 meetings down here in San Fernando
Valley and they’re 60 people strong. Some of them have been
around for 20 years. Addicts are recovering and I wrote and sent
the letter off and it came almost within a week. He said, “I
did what you told me, I got a meeting hall, a little place in
a church. I make the coffee every week. I read that literature
you gave me and then I sit down and I write you and that’s
my sharing.” I wrote this man on and off for like 6 months
or so. What happened about the end of 6 months, I didn’t
hear from him for 4 or 5 months. He was getting real disillusioned
because no one would show up for the meetings and things. I guess
maybe it gave me a feel for how Jimmy and some of the people like
Sylvia felt when Narcotics Anonymous fell apart.
One day I’d come to
the office and Jimmy goes, here you got a letter. I was from this
guy from Calgary. I opened it up and the letter was kind of scratchy
and wasn’t well-written and I thought the guy went out and
he said, “Phil, I’m sorry I haven’t written
you. Just wanted you to know that I’ve been real busy. I
did like you told me, I passed out all that literature at the
hospitals and the jails and stuff. Now, there’s five members
of Narcotics Anonymous in Calgary. Now I have 7 months clean and
we’re going strong. We have 3 meetings a week. You know
I knew how Jimmy felt right then.
I don’t know. I’ve
watched this program work. I’ve watched Jimmy work. I had
to go to Jimmy’s house when he was dying. That’s why
it was hard for me to see that tape. He used to cough and blood
would come up. I guess I should give you just a little bit of
history, as I know it. There was a large rift between the east
and the west on the NA book. Jimmy Kinnon did not believe that
the NA book was ready yet. He believed there was editing that
needed to be done on the original transcript. There’s a
lot of things that were a little bit splotched and kind of slapped
together. He believed that things should come out right. I don’t
believe it was for any selfish means whatsoever but then again
that’s my personal opinion. I personally believed that we
needed a book. But I’m an addict, I want what I want, now!
Jimmy believed that it should wait, that it should be put together
correctly and it should be edited. It should be released only
when it’s ready. He said it was better to have just the
right book other than the wrong book out there. That became a
war between the Board of Trustees and the area back east. I’m
not sure exactly what happened, I know that the World Service
Office moved out of his home. He agreed to that and he was made
office manager. It was a little office up on Vine but not far
away. After he worked up there for four or five months, he got
to a point where he had them going all in the right direction
and had all of the literature organized and everything. He showed
up to work one Monday and they had changed the locks on the door.
That’s how we thank our founder. I went over to Jimmy’s
and I just wanted to kick ass, I’m going to tell you. I
wanted to go to that office, knock the fucking doors down and
make those people accountable. Jimmy said, “Sit down. That’s
the problem with you, you got as bad a temper as I do.”
We sat and we talked and Jimmy had been crying and I knew he told
me something that was real important when he said that nothing
happens in this world by accident. He said that he could find
a way to accept it and that he held no one personally responsible.
I don’t know if I, I obviously couldn’t do quite that
well. I know that I’ve seen a T-shirt that says I’m
alive today because of Jimmy K. If you would have known him, you’d
know that’s true. We’re obligated to find the history
of Narcotics Anonymous, we’re obligated like Scott did:
to realize that we didn’t just come out of nowhere. We’re
not EST, we’re not Synanon, we’re Narcotics Anonymous.
Where addicts can and do recover. Where there is support groups
worldwide.
I remember when Jimmy got
the first meeting started behind the Iron Curtain, Czechoslovakia.
That’s one of the happiest times I’ve eve seen him.
I remember when he got the first meeting started in the Philippines.
I remember I went over that day and he was just lit up. I remember
going there the last 6 months of his life, I watched him be a
little more dead each time I went. I remember when he too, I mean
he was on medication, the pain was horrendous and he was going
to a doctor on a regular basis and they were going down his throat
with tubes and scoped and pipes and everything else. He never
cried or sniveled or whined. It wasn’t his way. He’d
reach into his heart and he found more room to do more service
for Narcotics Anonymous. That’s when he decided to make
a tape of the History of Narcotics Anonymous. The man was gallant!
We should be very proud. When he died there was a wonderful service.
I was there. I remember one guy getting up and he said, “If
you Jimmy, you’d know this was special. He had decided to
start a recovery unit and he’d used Narcotics Anonymous
and Jimmy Kinnon’s name to get funding for this recovery
unit. I think we talked about the principles and how Jimmy believed
in them. Jimmy said, “I’ll meet you for dinner.”
He sat across from this man and told him, “Right now the
red sauce in this spaghetti isn’t as dark as the blood in
my eye for you. You never violate Narcotics Anonymous.”
That was Jimmy. He believed in Narcotics Anonymous. He loved Narcotics
Anonymous and as far as I know he’s one of the best friends
I ever had. There’s a tape of his sharing at one of the
first, maybe the only club we’ve ever had. I’m not
going to ramble on, I just want us to know that somewhere in our
book, someday maybe in the 10th or 11th edition we need the story
of Narcotics Anonymous. Look what the hold for Bill W. and Dr.
Bob. I believe Jimmy did a lot more that those guys did. It wasn’t
easy and if you came here in ’69 like I did for the first
time and there were only 2 Narcotics Anonymous meetings in the
whole world. If you had to go to those other meetings and you
were told not to share, you’d realize how special in San
Diego alone, when I came down and there were 5 meetings and today
there’s close to 300. You’ve got to understand what
it’s like in his day, in his era, not to have a meeting
to go to. To have to start your own meeting, to have to start
your own fellowship. Think how many of us in this room have that
ability. Once again, I just want to say he was a special man.
He was my friend. He gave me my 2-year clean cake. I’ll
never forget him. He’ll always live as long as he lives
in our hearts. Let’s make people know who Jimmy K. was where
Narcotics Anonymous came from. Thank you.
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